Neither I can sleep,
nor I can remain awake,
can’t even walk,
and have lost the patience being fake.
I can feel that,
now even my offsprings fear my presence,
and my husband beats me,
and this present reminds me of my adolescence.
Something that happened to me,
has stick to my mind,
and I feel so miserable,
that with this topic my owns are blind.
After my husband knew this,
he hated me from the bottom of his heart,
and I want to but my owns
don’t support me to have a new start.
Either living or dead,
living the present but consciousness is in past,
and those monsters still haunt me,
with their dreadful smile and body vast.
They still live with me,
and have made me depressed,
and this has made my body weak,
and my mind possessed.
My daughter is scared of me,
because of my looks,
and rather than sleeping with me,
she likes to sleep with books.
After a long time,
I saw my face on the mirror,
and what I saw,
was quite dangerous.
I see those,
whom no one can,
and still remember the incident,
when they kidnapped me in a van.
Running from the past,
but it doesn’t leave me alone,
and just want to take a peaceful breath,
maybe last but I can’t do anything but moan.
My mind has taken over
my body and control,
and from a beautiful women,
has made me an ugly body like charcoal.
Don’t know if its true,
or my overthinking,
and want to lose this strong bind,
and whether surreal or real it’s my mind.